tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-41335112011-04-21T18:35:38.787-07:00[L earning] To Breathe*"And I don't want the world to see me,
Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming,
or the moment of truth in your lies.
When everything seems like the movies,
you bleed just to know you're alive."-suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comBlogger5131100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-44725639397717723482007-03-29T00:05:00.001-07:002007-03-29T00:05:13.017-07:00-suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-79305187268331708362007-03-29T00:01:00.002-07:002007-03-29T00:02:34.314-07:00-suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-69337726308775516672007-03-29T00:01:00.001-07:002007-03-29T00:01:32.182-07:00-suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1144589447136080572006-04-09T06:27:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:50.119-08:00I know it's long overdue.Moved. -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1144301404084571692006-04-05T21:45:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:49.983-08:00I'm having a hard time trying to put down my thoughts into words. Of course, that might have something to do with the fact that my thoughts are incoherent and fragmented more than my lack of vocabulary, which I won't deny either.Days have been crazy, with more than the usual share of shockers and suprises, some more unpleasant than the others. And it leads me to wonder about people and the allure-suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1143982619954108212006-04-02T05:38:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:49.818-08:00Back.Hockey camp was pretty nice, the team bonded quite a fair bit and we look pretty good for the upcoming tournment, at least mentally. It's quite an experience to have a coach as intense as our's, but the love, care and concern she's shown us has really touched us all. The little things she does really blows your mind. She's more than a coach to so many of us and I hope that we won't let her -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1143025365565944002006-03-22T02:54:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:49.705-08:00I need to sleep.The usual crazy-mugging scenario so familar to me, repeated once again. I wonder when I'll finally follow through on my promises and actually start to be consistent in my work.Papers were pretty screwed, didn't expect bio to turn out the way it did: Badly. Then again, how much can you expect from studying 2 days beforehand when everyone else has been mugging since before the march-suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1142740892920898572006-03-18T19:35:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:49.556-08:00I know anyone with half a brain wouldn't be blogging in the midst of mugging for the common test but since I've already wasted half of last night dining at a fancy restaurant and I'm going to waste half of today afternoon on waffles and ice cream, I might as well go all the way and blog too. Besides, I never said I was smart.5 down, 5 more to go.A terrible premonition about the coming up week but-suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1142570839245545982006-03-16T20:32:00.001-08:002006-11-15T06:06:49.422-08:00Up till 5 on the phone.Kind of strange to be on the phone all night again, it's been so long. Fell asleep after that for about 3-4 hours before forcing myself out of bed and into the study room. Just started on mugging for the common test, I can already feel a magraine coming on. This constant urge to cough and a fickle fever doesn't really help matters much. So wanna crawl back into bed but I -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1142498413392866852006-03-16T00:32:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:49.152-08:00YES!Today's turning out to be a not-so-unpleasant day afterall. Now if I could start studying properly, it would be a great day. Can't believe I wasted 5 days slacking around, what's wrong with me? 4 days left to salvage this mess, I really hope that I'll settle down and get my mind down to serious mugging. I need to do well this common test, more so than the promos or the O levels. Pray for -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1142071655598083832006-03-11T01:47:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:48.999-08:00I remember a time when you told me you hated her and the way she acts, the way she walks, the way she talks and everything about her. I remember a time when you told me you didn't like the way she bought everything you wanted and had to have everything you have.So why do I find it so disconcerting now to find out that everything you said just somehow doesn't stand true anymore? Does it mean that -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1142062352328151762006-03-10T23:13:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:48.857-08:00Last night was awesome.Mentally draining but the sense of satisifaction is second to none. Don't think I made enough of an impression to get called back for the quarterfinals but I really had a great time yesterday. I guess it was 'cos I wasn't so nervous, and most of the speakers in the B div were aware of the need to speak in a speed that maximised the adjudicators' ability to comprehend their -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1141547165036994982006-03-05T00:07:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:48.717-08:00And today, watching the show, I got a rude reminder of what it feels like to have your heart ripped into pieces. To feel as though your whole world has fallen apart, and to live your days with an emptiness within you that just seems to suck you deeper and deeper into this vacuum of despair. To have words fail you, unable to describe this agony that you feel deep within the recesses of your soul. -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1141543196265871332006-03-04T23:06:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:48.578-08:00Shagged.6 hours of sleep on a saturday is definately not enough. yawns. head's feeling really heavy and I know I've tons of work to do but somehow I can't bring myself to expand what little energy I have left on homework. Something must be seriously wrong with me if I'm feeling this way and the common test's only a couple of days away. Grr. Napfa was alright, kind of screwed up my sbj but luckily-suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1141266233419255152006-03-01T18:15:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:48.444-08:00Was blog-surfing and came across a couple of blogs talking about tkd.argh. I really miss capoeira now. I wish I could go back but I just don't have the time. I miss the company, the adrenaline rush and all the fun we had trying to learn things we weren't supposed to be learning. I'm going back, as soon as I'm done with nats this year.amyways, I hope I can get to go to brazil next year. woohoo -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1141265223657574132006-03-01T17:59:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:48.298-08:00The events of yesterday led me to wonder, can we ever truly forgive someone? I wish I could put my hand on my heart and tell you I can, I would and I did. But I can't. Try as I might, I can't bring myself to forgive the F#$%^& who started it all. There's no use apologising after everything's been casted into stone. It's sort of like, killing someone and then saying sorry. A million hail marys and-suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1141162697446705352006-02-28T13:29:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:48.158-08:00New hair, I missed the smell of wax.lol. It's pretty short, probably a contender in the top 5 shortest hairstyles I've had. But then again, after months of that long and annoying hair, it feels pretty damn good. Liberating, in some sense of the word.I wonder what happened. Been feeling awfully lazy and zoned out recently. Haven't been studying much for the tests, I hope I don't flunk too many. -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1141098162386558072006-02-27T19:29:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:48.014-08:00Tsk you know life's quite sad if you're reduced to blogging on the school computer. But that's something I ought to have gotten used to by now, seeing as to how my nights are spent in bed, dead in lala land. I hope the great white shark doesn't catch me blogging or I think I'm quite screwed. Not sure why though.Read your words and felt an eerie sense of deju vu. Same words, same circumstances, -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1140557492855997952006-02-21T13:20:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:47.858-08:00I don't like school. It's miserable.Waking up at 4 in the morning before a friendly in the afternoon is not what I had in mind when she told us about mental preparation. nahahah. But we'll see how it goes, maybe I'll die on the pitch from overexhaustion or maybe my adrenaline will be enough to keep me going. Got super hungry midway of studying so I went to the kitchen and prepared the handy 3 -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1140353042227425542006-02-19T04:39:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:47.607-08:00I'm exhausted. Head's pounding and my whole arm is just a mass of pain. I don't want school tomorrow cos I feel like shit. I'm going to get fucked when they find out that i've gone and fucked up all the physiotherapy they're put into my arm. Will someone just shoot me and put me out of this misery?Kill me before I kill myself.PLEASE.-suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1140125216870749182006-02-16T12:46:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:47.382-08:00I'm up at this absurd hour. Actually, I've been up since 4.Spent the past hour doing research and checking out mp3 players. Which reminds me. My ipod's in dire conditions. Screwed up the day before and yesterday but it's working now. Tentatively at least. Praying that it'll hold out until tuesday.Still aching pretty badly from wedsday but it was fun. lol. seriously. Glad that there's no -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1140039911002646112006-02-15T13:39:00.001-08:002006-11-15T06:06:47.190-08:00Training was great fun yesterday, but I think we're all quite battered and bruised, especially the forwards and the midfielders (afterall, we played catch :D). At least I know I am. Just a short note to say that I'm still alive, just very very busy. I'll blog soon, I hope. Much to say, especially since it's February. I've got to shower now, going to school to run.When I close my eyes, the images -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1140039895232607852006-02-15T13:39:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:46.929-08:00Training was great fun yesterday, but I think we're all quite battered and bruised, especially the forwards and the midfielders (afterall, we played catch :D). At least I know I am. Just a short note to say that I'm still alive, just very very busy. I'll blog soon, I hope. Much to say, especially since it's February. I've got to shower now, going to school to run.When I close my eyes, the images -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1139750499939830142006-02-12T05:03:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:46.655-08:00This desperate urge to blog. A million random words and phrases float before my eyes, seemingly without any rhyme or reason.A mental anguish has manifested itself into a physical ache that seems to take my breath away, rendering me helpless against the inner battle that rages within me. Even the mirror in the hallway mocks me, reflecting the image of a stranger in my place. Who am I kidding. I -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1139324715234382332006-02-07T06:48:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:46.444-08:00After reading gerry's blog, I do believe that a few heartfelt thank yous are in order. The period leading up to the SRJC debates were crazy, tempers flared up a lot and disagreements were a dime a dozen, but I believe (and I hope) that nothing has changed between us and if anything, the bonds between us have only grown stronger now that we've realised that there's plenty of quality in every one -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1139323086450687742006-02-07T06:19:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:46.270-08:00"And the best speaker is the 2nd opposition speaker"Personal Satisifaction.Days are going by badly, with loads of unfinished work and tons of teachers breathing down my arse but on the whole, I have to say things aren't going too badly. Completed my course last friday, in the midst of an extremely hectic and tiring CNY week. During which I spent most of my time with the debaters preparing for the-suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1138804078659147062006-02-01T06:09:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:46.113-08:00There's a side of me that wants to reject all the roles that tradition dictates I have to play. There's a part of me that wants to shed the chains that are holding me back and for once, find out what's it like to go wild and not bother about the consquences. I'm not being rebellious, or going crazy, I think I just need to know.Then again, I think this might be the stress talking. Haven't had a -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1138618456707724272006-01-30T02:46:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:45.959-08:00I'm back.Buffet was alright, didn't have much of an appetite so I just ate a plate of rice and a couple of desserts. Probably wasted the money my mummy spent but I think it was more about the "spending time together as a family" concept rather than the buckeroos. Got a ton of work left to complete, but I can't shake off the cny mood. Not that I'm especially interested or into the celebrations, -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1138593233279569782006-01-29T19:17:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:45.844-08:00Fearless.It's the second day of the chinese new year and however much I try to convince myself that cny isn't just an evil plot to force unwilling teenagers to spend time with (some of) their relatives whom they don't really like too much, I haven't had much luck. lol. but I guess I have it pretty easy, seeing as to how relatives like those mentioned above are far and few in numbers. Not to -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1138112211755075032006-01-24T06:13:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:45.725-08:00!@#@#%%^%^&^*%@#%&((&^&%%$@#!WTF. Haven't felt so pissed off in a long time.Stupid F@#$%^.-suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1137812963508874622006-01-20T18:47:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:45.614-08:00Cheena-ism.Tsk tsk I blame kbox for introducing me to all the chinese songs that I'm currently addicted to. Not that there's anything wrong with that, but I've never really cared for chinese songs until that fateful introduction to F.I.R, mayday etc. But some of their songs make me feel happy so I'm probably not going to stop listening to it anytime soon. Maybe my chinese will get better! lol.-I -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1137599143914543392006-01-18T07:18:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:45.499-08:00Training today resembled a scene from the past. It was pretty tough going while it lasted but I was pleasantly suprised to find myself in relatively good shape after a good meal, a hot bath and a long nap, which goes to show the wonders of self-indulgence.3 long days have passed, 2 more to go. It hasn't been as hetic as I thought it would be, helped along by the fact that I missed school -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1137483958667782022006-01-16T23:30:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:45.366-08:00I'm starting to get used to the madness of school life again.The never-ending tutorials, late nights and the feeling of exhaustion that plagues me constantly. Succumbing to the flu virus was just a matter of time after the endless hours of running around madly in the rain in a whirlwind of activity. So now my achy grey mass is resisting any attempt I'm making of a productive day at home, -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1136593400325341142006-01-06T16:13:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:45.229-08:00baby I don't dare to dream no more. Pretty screwed up end to the week, but yeah, whatever. Can't help what people do, but I can help how I feel right? -shrugs. Maybe not but screw it anyway. Recieved an email from prema (my ex-soccer coach) asking me to participate in some st soccer tournment soon. But yeah, school comes first this year so I don't think I can. Which breeds the problem, what do I -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1136468921968450132006-01-05T05:20:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:45.103-08:00I don't know why school has the effect that it does or how it exerts its effect, but hell, it's sucking the energy right out of me. And it's only been 3 days. I dread to think about the next few months, though I'm not sure if it's because of how tiring it's going to get or because I know that I'll most probably be slacking and doing everything else instead of studying.Yawns.CCA open house today. -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1136295078379024462006-01-03T05:23:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:44.970-08:00First Day Back.First day back at school was pretty uneventful and kind of boring. It was nice to be able to see all my classmates and friends after so loong, though lessons was a bit tough to get used to again. Content wise was fine, nobody tried to drown us with tons of complex facts or subject jargons. But it was kind of boring to have to sit through 2 hour lectures on your first day back, I -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1136192553440770832006-01-02T00:48:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:44.865-08:00I hope this year's crazy. Almost everyone I know's turning 18, some are turning 21, but all in all, I hope the celebrations are off the roof. This holiday has been pretty crazy at times, but I've realised that sometimes it's good to let go of your reservations and just learn to let loose. Happy New Year, People. I hope this year will be a fantastic year for us all. Cheers. Love, Jing. -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1135847392933744382005-12-29T00:36:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:44.740-08:00I realise that a new template is the perfect impetus for this sudden wave of entries.There's approximately 4 and a half days to the start of what promises to be a very torturous and long year. In the process of attempting to do my work earlier in the day, I've reached the bleak conclusion that I have forgotten everything that I was supposed to know in preparation for the coming year. #%$*#$%^&*%#-suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1135770126888355822005-12-28T03:05:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:44.593-08:00My First Time.I have to confess, before today, I was a one-day-sale virgin. Yes, that's right. I have never ever ever queued up for hours and hacked my way through masses of bodies to take advantage of the one-day-only 30% discount off retail items.You see, I used to consider it highly unglam and a waste of time. Afterall, I used to think, 30% off is only a few dollars different. And I would -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1135659721352518042005-12-26T20:40:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:44.440-08:00"Lies - Black, white and all shades of grey"I briefly contemplated moving my blog elsewhere but decided, after sufficient thought, that a new layout would suffice for a fresh start. Had much to say last night but words abandoned me, and left my ramblings sounding like an inchorent mess. Thus, the decision to save myself from further embarassment was duly made and I lived to blog another day.Days -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1135599537219460032005-12-26T04:04:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:44.276-08:00"And when you hide that, you're hiding the best part." What a year.It's been a hell of a ride. So many changes, this whole year has opened my eyes to so many truths. The events that have taken place over this period has in many ways, shaped me into the person that I'm likely to be for a long, long time. The good things, the bad things and the unsual things. There are things that I want to say but-suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1135483714579759682005-12-24T19:59:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:44.136-08:00Merry merry Christmas! :DReached home at 4 this morning, head spinning and a fair bit tipsy from all that booze. But I just came by to wish everyone a very merry christmas and god bless!Off for christmas day lunch. :DLove.-suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1135337960675733362005-12-23T03:37:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:43.981-08:00I just had the freakiest experience in my whole life.Spooked.-suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1134048263935960782005-12-08T04:44:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:43.822-08:00For the 2nd time in 2 days, I am left to bemoan the fact that I am seventeen and I have no life. This conclusion leads me to 2 obvious solutions, one of which is to repeat my dull and boring rantings of last night, word for word, while the other is to start packing for hockey chalet tomorrow.Chalet. Now, this word conjures up two very different set of images for two different groups of people. -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1133988774117878332005-12-07T12:08:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:43.637-08:00I actually attempted to blog earlier in the night, but there was nothing much to say so I gave it up in the end. Got woken up by the storm at 2 plus, and a random thought that popped into my head scared the shit out of me. I guess we're inspired by the weirdest things so I'm here, ready to script my next long and incoherent as hell entry.Nothing interesting has been happening in my life for the -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1133398349870915642005-11-30T16:28:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:43.500-08:00My finger looks like a cocktail sausage now.Currently stuck on Craig David's Seven Days, there's just something about that song that makes me feel good. -grins. Training yesterday was really satisfying, at least for me. It wasn't that we were fantastic or anything like that, but that it just felt so good to be on the pitch. It was a real rush for me, made a couple of stupid mistakes and there're -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1133162599784927002005-11-27T23:09:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:43.358-08:00When I close my eyes I realise I can't remember things anymore.Incidents, images that were once so vivid and clear are now just vague and blurry pictures with lousy resolution and it breaks my heart. These were the memories I tried so hard to hold onto, fearing that if I ever forgot how it felt like to be truly truly happy and contended, I'll end up never feeling that way ever again. It's a scary-suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1133160588940300462005-11-27T22:44:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:43.218-08:00I do wish I didn't feel quite so much like a pentulant child on the inside, but I can't really help it. Hmph. I shall resolve to spend the rest of my holidays productively, instead of sitting my ass on the sofa and watching telly all day long.I really should.-suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1132662661891968012005-11-22T04:13:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:43.026-08:00And I've spent the most of today either sleeping or wishing that limewire would hurry up and download that damn serial I've been waiting for since forever. Somewhere in between, I've managed to catch up on my blog-readings, shower (I Think) and eat dinner. Yawns. Nothing productive was achieved but it's the holidays you know. Therefore, I've been graciously granted a license to slack by our very -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1132614952627446542005-11-21T15:05:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:42.904-08:00And dare I venture a thought out loud?Manchester United is reminiscent of an re-ocurring syndrome in my life.A team of stunning beauty on paper that takes your breath away. Seldom does a team seem to come together in such a perfect blend of experience and youth, of passion and enthusiasm.But yet, in reality, a team... that fails to live up to our expectations.A teams that promises so much but -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1132613354615143912005-11-21T13:39:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:42.749-08:00Why do I somehow feel that as I grow older, I tend to take more and more of life's misfortunes upon my shoulders? Even those that I can't exert much control over. Hell, I know I can't control everything that's happening around me but that knowledge doesn't do much to help the images that keeps flashing in my head. A hundred different things all at once, it's no wonder I'm going a little -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1131350913678311942005-11-06T23:52:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:42.602-08:00Slacking at charmaine's house now, the genius (yours truly) is supposed to be helping my group with a new template for our powerpoint presentation but...hur hur.Anyhow, hockey training later. hrms. I hope it's not going to be so hot since it's at 5 but you never know. Speaking of which, the netball carnival's left me with an odd tan. Now I could be chinese, indian or malay, depending on which -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1131082447408431992005-11-03T21:27:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:42.415-08:00You can run and you can hide but you can't deny your past.-suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1130850742740986012005-11-01T04:26:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:41.461-08:00The past.2 simple words that evoke so many memories.17 years of life, but yet a million and one recollections. Some happy, some sad, but all memorable. Sometimes, I sit on the bus, reminiscing about the past. Thinking about the mistakes I've made with friends, in life. Wondering what went wrong. Pondering the many choices I've made, asking myself the same old questions over and over again as the -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1130847433804566682005-11-01T03:50:00.000-08:002006-11-15T06:06:41.323-08:00Bad deliveries and lousy phones.What a turn off.I got a new phone today and I was all ready to name it SEXY. But what would you know, the keypad didn't work right. So now I'm back to using my old phone, which isn't half bad if I would say so myself.BUT...it's still a turn off.Which brings me to my next topic.Macdonald's delivery.LOL. What a screw up. Having spent a good half part of our day -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1130362574806433702005-10-26T14:28:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:41.199-08:00I'm aching like mad but it's soooo worth it.The past week since the release of the results have been nothing but a furry of netball and hockey. Woohoo!Oh man oh man. That rush you get when you're on the court is second to NONE. It's like some sort of drug that makes you forget everything else, all the unpleasantness, all your worries, fears and insecurities.Yippeeeedooo.Okay I'm going -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1130127730360307572005-10-23T21:10:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:41.072-08:00It's out. All the results.I guess I should be relieved, seeing as to how I started studying only a week beforehand. But I can't deny that it still sucks. I guess I always thought that I was smart enough to get away with last minute studying, but I'm not That smart afterall I think.Recognise this fear, remember this fear and learn to hate this fear.I will, I promise.Hockey and netball today.Still -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1129846470937345702005-10-20T15:07:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:40.958-08:00I've missed hockey.Been a looooooooooooong while since I've touched a hockey stick and I'm quite sure of embarassing myself later but I'm really glad that trainings are going to be resumed today! Woohooo!Life's a pitch, play hockey while you can.And just in case, THE MAN reads my blog, I just want to say: I think you're screwing this up.Take a look around you and see what happens when you do what-suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1129644199150402602005-10-18T06:44:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:40.838-08:00About sports CCAs, I think it's a pity if the rumours are true. I really do.I've been mad about it, I've been really pissed off.But now, like I said, I'm just disappointed.Disappointed for students that have slogged so hard to bring glory to the school. Granted the results in the various competitions so far haven't been great, but for a college so young, our future's unlimited, if and only if, -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1129642828135183592005-10-18T05:43:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:40.691-08:00Time really flies.It's been 10 months since I first walked into PJC, suspicious and cynical.During this time, I've fallen in love with the school that has given me so many wonderful memories. I fell in love with the wonderful people. I fell in love with hockey, with debate. I would have defended PJC to my death. But now...I'm exhausted. I'm depressed. I'm disappointed.I'm a million and one -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1128826736500815812005-10-08T19:47:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:40.380-08:00Random actions accompanies a random mind.The storm has come to pass, and yes I'm still alive. For now, at least. All that's left is an immense relief mixed with a tinge of guilt. Guilty of procrascinating, guilty of not giving my 110%. But that's life isn't it? We just have to make do with what we have, we always do. The results will probably be out soon, and then we'll just see what happens. -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1128161550494446932005-10-01T02:56:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:40.169-08:00The thought of retaining has been haunting my dreams.Realised I've been wallowing in misery for the past week, staring at my work but worrying about the promos. Nothing much seems to be getting into my head, saturated with a million other useless insecurities. But I've come to realise, that this is all that life's about...As the clock counts down to the final days before the promos, I can't deny -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1128045757477749882005-09-29T18:53:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:39.970-08:00Promos are really near, but I haven't seen any effort from myself save for the usual staring-at- the-notes-but-nothing-gets-into-my-head.Hence the threat of retaining looms.I miss hockey.I miss capoeira.I miss debate.Been contemplating about whether or not to go for sat's capoeira. Don't think I will 'cos I know I'll never forgive myself if I went and ended up spending half the day there. Even if-suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1127550033823179792005-09-24T01:06:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:39.775-08:00Dare I say I feel left out...or dare I not. I'm in no position to complain about the way things have turned out, because I could have done a lot more in the beginning. It's the way things are, and the way things will be, but all in all, it's still a bitter pill to swallow. It's hard to dismiss it and pretend that it's nothing because the facts are always staring at me right in the face. F*** -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1126271837290824062005-09-09T06:01:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:39.585-08:00One week in a postHad school on monday, tuesday and weds. Had chemistry tutorial, facilitated a camp for CIP and took the chinese mock test. Missed the econs lectures and tutorials on tues morning and thurs morning. Capoeira workshop from mon-weds, performance was on thurs. Birdpark today.School was boring, camp was amusing and capoeira was pretty good.I am now officially a corda crua. =)-suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1125486472392837182005-08-31T04:02:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:39.393-08:00I think it's true what people say, that jc is the worst years of your life.Never been so much on the edge before, never had so much trouble controlling my temper.But fcuk it.Had a good time with my sec school friends today.I shall resolve to harness all my negative feelings and keep them to myself.Off to watch telly.-suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1125117426627385562005-08-26T21:11:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:39.208-08:00Wasn't in a really good mood yesterday, but am much better now.Shopping yesterday with jeff and germaine.'tis was a lot of fun! =)We went to CANDY EMPIRE!Sweets, chocolate and candies galore!Spent a lot of time looking around and trying to decide what to buy. After which we procceeded to make a hasty escape before any of us started to change our minds about what to buy...again. lol. Not to -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1125061646249691802005-08-26T05:59:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:39.033-08:00Oh, and.I don't expect any reply, and to be honest, I don't want to. Because the one thing I haven't learnt in this long time is how to face you again. Maybe I'm just afraid to getting hurt again, maybe. Ha. I don't know why I'm digging up the past. But I think I just need to get it off my chest. I doubt you'll ever get wind of this anyway, but if you hold no negative feelings, then I hope you'll-suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1125060793441285942005-08-26T05:17:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:38.672-08:00It's been a while, an awfully long while. And in all the time that I've spent waiting and hoping for something to happen, I've learnt that disappointments are a part and parcel of everyday life. I've learnt that lip service is something unavoidable, and all promises and sweet words mean something only as long as their expiry date. I've learnt that as time passes, all your hopes and dreams will -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1124980101551160472005-08-25T07:19:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:38.544-08:00Indifference.I feel indifferent.Being feeling indifferent all week.I wonder why.But I think it's because I'm tired.Tired of everything.Tired of slogging so hard everyday. Tired of having to juggle a million and one things at the same time. Tired of having to deal with myself and everyone else.I don't want to study anymoreeeeeeeeeeeeeee. :(I feel so......all of a sudden.I hate you and you and -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1124979265057744982005-08-25T07:04:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:38.405-08:00Where is the moment we needed the most,You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost.They tell me your blue skies fade to grey,They tell me your passion's gone away,And I don't need no carryin' on.You stand in the line just to hit a new low,You're faking a smile with the coffee to go.You tell me your life's been way off line,You're falling to pieces everytime.And I don't need no carryin' on...-suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1124708488683368102005-08-22T03:47:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:38.263-08:00Announcement:THE SECOND INTERNATIONAL CAPOEIRA FESTIVAL For those who are clueless about capoeira, here's a short introduction. Capoeira is an afro-brazilian art form and blends elements of dance, music, rituals, acrobatics, and fighting. Not convinced? Take a look at the pictures below! Want to know more? Capoeira Workshop from the 5-7th of September7-9pmNational University of Singapore -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1124548570999704872005-08-20T07:08:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:38.126-08:00Moodswinging.I think it's that time of the year when you start feeling really stressed out and guilty over the effort of effort you're putting into your studies and the results you're getting, neither which is much to boast about.Two very lonely walks.I don't know why I let it get to me the way it did, maybe it was because everything else was so wrong, but it has honestly been a very long time -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1123947168483766392005-08-13T08:12:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:37.973-08:00There's been quite a few cases of flaming online nowadays, both to people I know and people I don't. Been wanting to say this for a long time now, but I guess that after today, there's an impedus for me to voice my humble opinion.One's lifestyle is pretty much up to oneself and to be honest, I don't think that we, as bystanders and outsiders should comment, or have a right to comment. Granted, we-suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1123895895634713482005-08-12T18:03:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:37.847-08:00I can't believe that things are such a mess now.Seems like everywhere I turn, the world looks the same: bleak and uncaring.Sometimes knowing something that you're not supposed to know can be the biggest burden of all, especially when it's something about you. I guess humans just hate it when the feelings aren't mutual, no matter whether you're talking about a friend or a lover. Enough said.My -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1123709474822861482005-08-10T14:24:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:37.690-08:00I'm going to bring my cam to school, for no reason at all.I've been holding back, but somehow the time has come for me to take this step forward. I don't think that there's anyone out there who knows what I'm talking about but it's okay, it's just one of those things you've can't tell anyone, even if you want to 'cause it ends up sounding all WRONG.Mummmy, save me. I haven't finished studying!-suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1123708782049950702005-08-10T14:05:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:37.457-08:00I need to sleep. -moans.I would kill to tuck myself in that nice comfy bed with blue covers and a pretty blue comforter and fall asleep but I know I'll never forgive myself if I didn't study for that Damn Damn chemistry test. Not like I'll pass the test but yeah well. -shrugs.I'm sick of mugging.Sick to death.It's not like anyone really cares about the addition of a carbon atom to the carbon -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1123644896897843072005-08-09T20:26:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:37.346-08:00I've realised that my life is made up of phrases and that somehow it's either the "oh crap my life is getting out of hand" phrase or the "shit my life is boring" phrase. Why can't there be, for once, a "ahh. life is so sweet" phrase?I'm sinking into myself.There seems to be a part of me that's threatening to overcome every single rational cell in my body.I have no idea what I'm talking about.Can -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1123375274483479532005-08-06T17:33:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:37.237-08:00I want to buy the matrix online game!okay now that that's out of my system, maybe we could start to get serious.Was at the library yesterday wif dasen and su for our gp presentation research, me and chaim da ended up reading more irrelavant materials (e.g. alcatraz, punishment and tortures, winning hockey for girls and micheal owen's soccer skills) than what we were supposed to be reading (eg. -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1122997925497059402005-08-02T08:23:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:37.073-08:00Days haven't been any good, so far.Funny how it takes a million and one things for us to feel truly happy, but a few small and isolated incidents to bring all the gloom back into this world. Worse when nothing seems to be able to offset all the darkness, not for an extended period of time anyhow.Been promising myself each day that it'll be the day when I start working hard for my promos, but as -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1122780518457046342005-07-30T20:17:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:36.932-08:00I'm late!!tsk tsk I still want to blog though. haha. Going for sch of rock finals later, hope that 1) it's not going to rain 2) there will be lesser people (unlikely) and of course, that 3) su's band hits jackpot.But anyhow, it's been a pretty depressing and disappointing week. Fell sick with a major bout of flu on tuesday and I've been beaten ever since. Voice's a mess, body's a mess, mind's a -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1122124236700179802005-07-23T05:30:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:36.805-08:00Disclaimer: The author claims no responsibility for the contents of the following entry. This entry was written in a fit of cynical anger about everything and nothing in particular.Well. This was by far, the fastest that I've gotten over an issue of such Huge proportion. No, it doesn't mean that I'm no longer depressed and upset over it or that I don't treasure their friendships anymore. (them -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1122118739007351832005-07-23T04:33:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:36.614-08:00they told us bad thing comes in 3s.well. they were wrong.HA HA HA.bad things comes in one wave, and hits you like a fucking ton of lead.Kind of reminds me of a....well planned operation. Decapitation. One swop and all is lost. AMUSING AINT IT.well, not when you're the one whose head's on the block.life can never be good to you for too long can it.kind of figures.here's a gun and a million -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1122117161886162242005-07-23T04:04:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:36.450-08:00Funny how I always turn out to be the fool.I know you're laughing at me.But pardon me if I sound stupid, afterall I don't see what's so funny.Things will end up the way they always do.With me losing Everything.-suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1122035214675058342005-07-22T05:17:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:36.312-08:00School was pretty interesting today, save the lessons. Had some funny drawing of houses thingy for assembly. I think the new house names are WAAY better then the old one. Anyhow, s08's in owens. Hur hur. Downside's that I'll be wearing the name of an ex-liverpool player (pfft) and the house colour's pretty ecky, but upside's that mrs loh's going to be our house misteress. YAY! lol.Cheap thrill. :-suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1121955438593142452005-07-21T07:11:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:36.172-08:00Had the usual lessons, but was falling asleep most of the time. Played volleyball for pe, then some more until about 7 plus. 'tis is fun. but very energy-expanding. Bio test tmr, supposed to be studying now but I'm too shagged, nothing's going into my head, no matter how hard I try. Going to bed now then, i suppose. Feeling a little ache in my lower back, I think I pulled a muscle. pffft.i -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1121437783181593582005-07-15T06:30:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:36.044-08:00Towned today wif my mum. :DSchool was pretty mundane today, nothing exciting happened. pfft. was looking forward to finally attending hockey training again, but it was cancelled due to the racial harmony day rehearsal in the afternoon. No idea why either.Anyhow, decided to hitch up wif my mum and her two friends for a little much needed R&R. Pesky little sis was out wif her friends at holland so -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1121172105448375202005-07-12T05:22:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:35.910-08:00A dedication to the PJC junior college debating championship team '05Words will never fully express the feelings I have towards you guys. But one thing's for sure, the past 3 weeks are going to be on my mind for a loong long time. It's only been a few days, but I miss it all already: all the jokes, the laughter, your faces. All those long nights, burning the midnight oil together, constantly -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1120987761804565412005-07-10T02:12:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:35.757-08:00'tis was a nerve-wrecking day yesterday.but last night was the most fun I had in a loooong time.it was great.jcdc was pretty tense, with us, or acturately, me screwing up the first debate against sajc. lost by split decision. pffft. synapses were drunk with sleep, i suppose. didn't respond when they challenged us. -shrugs. second debate was against cjc. 'tis did much better this time, responding -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1120772195939115542005-07-07T14:35:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:35.637-08:00It's white long sleeved shirt tmr.Hur.I dunnnno. PFFFFFFT.-suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1120688403389217642005-07-06T15:18:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:35.512-08:00Oh. And sheryl said that we're all starting to sound like jon.tsk tsk.LOL.-suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1120684896320980952005-07-06T14:01:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:35.380-08:00I feel strangely detached.But then again. pffft.Friendly debate against VJC last night. 'tis was very helpful in helping us to identify the loopholes in our case setup, and gave us plenty of food for thought. I guess my speech went alright, though there's without a doubt, much room for improvement, styistically and content wise. But I'm glad for the progress that I've made, I feel myself getting -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1120572701336421772005-07-05T06:59:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:35.227-08:00@$$^^*()*_*(&$%^#$%@#@%$^#!%#%&&(()&*(^^#$$@#!WTF -shakes head.The condescending tone, that slow and meticulous way you speak. Everything about you just rubs me the wrong way. -swears loudly. We're humans, and there's a limit to what we can and cannot do. How the $%%^ do you expect us to do everything in the limited amount of time we have. We're killing ourselves for you and that's not enough? -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1120535927467618852005-07-04T20:51:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:35.107-08:0010 words/phrases I never want to hear again1) Development aid2) Population control measures3) 3rd world nations4) Beneficial5) Detriments6) Developing nations7) Tying8) First world nations9) We will prove to you10) SubstaintivesLOL. It was pretty scary the other day 'cos I suddenly woke up from my nap panicking over whether I had used the right phrase in my speech. Like WTF. I swear we're all -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1120382981425514442005-07-03T02:17:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:34.969-08:00Let's speak of priorities.That dreaded word that comes with so much damm responsibility. Without a doubt, I do love debating. And I know it's something I'll want to do for the rest of my schooling life if possible. I know how lucky I am to have gotten so far with the little amount of experience I have. I appreciate the faith that the rest of my team have in me, with me still being pretty much of -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1120226247242490542005-07-01T06:47:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:34.853-08:00Pfffft.I'm supposed to be doing debate prep now, but you know me; Procrascination's my middle name.FREAKING SHAGGED.and aching everywhere.neck, shoulder, knee and arms.the result of intense volleyball, hockey and a lack of sleep.Energy to spare anyone? :(-suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1120210162118854092005-07-01T02:18:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:34.729-08:005 days have passed, and I'm finally online.12 hours of sleep in 3 days just isn't going to cut it.Everytime I thought that things were finally heading in the right direction, I was wrong.Was I wrong in thinking that you were better than this?Maybe so.You disappoint me too much, dear friend. Maybe things just ain't.One step forward, two steps back.What a riot.-suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1119802502558723512005-06-26T09:06:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:34.559-08:00School starts now.Another 6 months of ups and downs before the blissful holidays sees itself fit to dawn upon us again.In this 6 months I promise myself that1) I will study smart, hard and regularly (or try to at least)2) Devote my heart and soul to hockey and debate3) Be there for my friendsThe rest can wait 'till the holidays.Like I said, there are some things that HAVE to be done.I have faith -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1119683687650569812005-06-24T23:57:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:34.413-08:00Debate against JJ today.'tis was pretty amusing, with eveything from push up bras to big breasts to the OC being brought up. lol. Did much better today than on weds, seeing as how we had 2-3 days to prepare for it. Still don't think that it's good enough for the main team though, but that's really up to jonanthan. Shall just hope and pray. :(Lunch at swensen's wif geralyn and langer again. Black -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4133511.post-1119492675633578102005-06-22T18:44:00.000-07:002006-11-15T06:06:34.274-08:00It's 9.50am and I'm having a breakfast of ham and coke. Tsk unhealthy diet tsk. Another 4 days before school reopens, time for me to settle down and prepare to go back to my hermit's lifestyle. I don't know why, but there's something in the simplicity of school life that's really alluring at this current moment. Though I know I'll probably come back in a couple of days and ask myself what had -suffocated-http://www.blogger.com/profile/15477842863039870015noreply@blogger.com